It’s not so easy, being born a girl, knowing that one day you will be a woman. It’s not fair to grow up with the thought that you are a member of the weaker sex. It’s not the most exciting piece of news, when you’re told being a woman means carrying a curse. It’s not […]

“The baby is gone.” These words leave only the rubble of pain and shadows from which a mother must pry herself from. There are no emergency medical teams that could rescue her would-be-baby. She stood helplessly as he left her. There was no angelic intervention. Simply loss. Cold, aching loss. In this dark hour of […]

I felt baby’s movements change about two days before labor began – lower, sharper, and in my back – and I knew baby and my body were getting ready. The baby had felt very heavy on my pelvic bones and it was getting hard to walk, more than with my first two pregnancies. On the […]

Have you ever been envious of someone? Envious of someone’s success, confidence, intelligence? I am sure we all have at some point. A strange thing has happened to me lately. I have birth envy. Not the kind of birth envy that comes about because my own birth lacked something. I envy women in labour. Imagine […]

My mental place, my dream birth. This is where I go, when in labour, and relaxing with music through my contractions. I always envision myself in a field of green grass. The sky is a pale blue, and there are a few wispy clouds painted onto the blue canvas of a sky. It is an […]

As I was finishing an article I was writing, I noticed some contractions, and wondered whether this could be labor. It was around midnight. Because the contractions were not regular yet, I really wasn’t sure if this was labor. To pass the time, I watched some television and surfed the net. Contraction Master (a website […]